I understand that we all set out to live the life we choose, and I think there are a lot of ingredients in that equation: two parts upbringing, one part peer group, a dash of experiences, and a tablespoon of genetic predisposition. At least, this is to what I equate my sometimes suffocating variety of hopes/goals/dreams.
I’ve touched on this in the past, but I really do wish that for a day I could entirely step out of my body and authentically experience what it’s like to not live in my brain, constantly pressing myself to achieve the lists of things I want and am confident I can be or do. While I certainly don’t want to lose touch with these desires, I know there’s a lot to be learned from my friends and peers who are able to really live in the moment, not to be distracted by what I ‘should’ or ‘could’ be doing.
Don’t get me wrong. This isn’t a ‘woe is me’ swan song, but rather an honest admission that this way of life, while at times extremely rewarding, can also be quite suffocating and certainly exhausting.
If any of you are hypnotherapists and are able to help this Betwixter let go enough to fall under the spell for just a moment, take me up on this plea to put me in the trance and guide me to just enjoy!